i have to exercise now.
I've hit the ominous 199 as of this morning. So wrong to be this big. I don't feel huge though, but I know I am getting bigger when I look in the mirror. How did this happen? two months ago I was 15 lbs lighter. I know I was stressed with the wedding, etc. I was also on a higher dosage of meds (by choice).
It's funny, I've spent all this time telling Noa I'm worried about his weight and his health and now I'm suddenly on the decline myself. Hm.
So the other part is I know I need to step it up for us. We're both waiting for each other to get motivated. Hrm. I'm frustrated to have his weight on top of mine, but I'm sure he feels the same way about me.
Lucky, then that I hit that 199--because I will fight as hard as possible to stay far away from the evil 200, as it is, to me, the sign of defeat. Of letting laziness take control of me instead of taking control of myself.
Okey doke. So we'll work out tonight. That's a good start. And tomorrow, I'm walking to work. Even though I have an 8am call. So be it.
God bless us as we try to be better. Please give us your H.S. bump, and may we permanently lose more than the weight--may we lose our laziness and lack of focus as well. Shed us of that as well as the fat! And may we seek you daily as part of our discipline. Amen!
