Man, here it is, I'm back into the blog world. I blame this completely on my inability to find a piano in a private space that I can run away to. I'm not sure whom I will invite in to listen quite yet.
Life is tumbling fast--I'm getting married next year (omg) and by doing so, am settling into being a human-adult. I have never liked transition. I like new things--once things stop moving enough that I can enjoy the view. But until then, I grip tight, close my eyes, and wish the ride would end. Where I land is secondary in importance to just stopping.
But I am getting married, and so marriage--my landing location--is now priority. The need to keep my eyes open and to prepare, mindfully, through this process is clear--building our relationship and enjoying the blurry snapshots I manage to catch is part of the foundation of our future marriage. So, though against my 25-year ingrained nature, I have to chill. Out. And enjoy.
I have no idea how to do this, yet. That's what this blog is for, to work out the trials of growing up--quickly--and loving someone else more than myself. Both are hard. I am convinced that anyone that says that these tasks are easy are simpleminded (and blessed in being such), or just lying.
But I'm not alone, I'm walking daily with my Jesus. When I am weak, I know he will refresh me with his holy spirit, when I ask, that I might be joyful and a blessing yet again.
If anyone reads this thing, I hope it helps you somehow. Many adventures to come, in Christ, in work, in relationships, and...in wedding planning!
Cheers to being real!
--H
